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When The Military Ruins Everything

When The Military Ruins Everything |

Well, I finally have a PCS update for you all.  It’s not the update I was hoping to be able to share, but it’s an update.  Yesterday, Zack went off to work at his usual time and I woke up a couple of hours later to a text from him, telling me that the Marine Corps is sending him to Japan without me.  Rather than waiting to see if I get medically approved to go, they decided to change his orders and make them unaccompanied for a year.

If you’ve been following along for a while, you know that this move has been incredible stressful for us.  It’s been a nightmare.  Back in February, I found out I couldn’t get approved by dental to PCS to Okinawa because I had some work they wanted me to get done.  So in April, after $2,000+ worth of dental work, I was finally approved by on base dental.  We were so excited and we figured all the paperwork would be done that week and we could get our area clearance to move.  Well the very next day, we then got even more bad news from overseas screening.  We were then told that even though my regular doctor on base approved me to PCS, I still had to get approved by the on base hospital in Japan because of my scoliosis.

We were supposed to arrive in May, but ended up being given an extension since it was taking so long to get my paperwork approved.  So we were given until July 1st.  That didn’t happen, so they gave us a final extension for the end of August.  Now, a few weeks later, Zack is finding out that they decided to just change his orders and make them unaccompanied so they don’t have to wait for my paperwork anymore.  After everything we’ve been through to get me approved to go, I now can’t go regardless of what overseas screening says.

Words cannot express how I’m feeling right now.  I don’t want this post to turn into a vent and I’m not here to complain about military life or the Marine Corps or any of that.  It’s just so upsetting that the military can and will do things like that.  Leave me with nowhere to go.  I was online looking at apartments yesterday to get an idea of how much this is going to cost and they all want first and last month’s rent, along with a security deposit and a pet fee all up front.  It’ll cost a few thousand just to get me into a new place.  I have no idea how we’re going to be able to afford it in such a small time frame.  Plus moving all our stuff there and getting Zack to Japan.  I feel completely screwed over right now.

I was so excited when he got orders to Okinawa.  I’ve never left the country before so I was thrilled to have a once in a lifetime opportunity of living in another country for a few years and seeing more of the world.  I had a whole list of things I wanted to do while we were there.  Attractions, festivals, islands to travel to.  It’s a once in a lifetime opportunity that I don’t get anymore.  It almost feels like a punishment.  Like I did something wrong.  A deployment is one thing, but to be told I can’t live with my husband, is ridiculous.  Our little family is being torn apart and there’s nothing I can do about it.

It’s going to be a really tough year for us.  We’ve done long distance before, but not between two different countries.  Different time zones.  We wont be able to visit each other.  I wont be able to celebrate our anniversary with him or holidays or birthdays.  He wont be here for my college graduation next May.  It sucks.  I’ve never lived by myself before.  I’m hoping to move to the Boston area so I can be close to my best friend, and a few hours from friends and family so we’ll see if we can get that to work out.  Either way, it’s just not going to be home without him.

I hope you all are having a much better week than I am.  I’m sorry to anyone who sent me an email yesterday.  I honestly just wasn’t feeling motivated to do much.  I probably spent about 85% of my day, in tears and talking with my best friend.  I’m trying to get everything back on track today.  My goal for today is to get everything typed up and scheduled for the week and catch up on all my emails and guest posts so bear with me this week!