Friday Confessions

Friday Confessions |

Friday Confessions |

Happy Friday everyone! Is anyone else SO happy that it’s finally the weekend? This week has been crazy stressful around here. I am more than happy to say goodbye to it and enter into weekend mode. It’s been so bad. I haven’t done a Friday Confessions post in a while and since this week was so crazy, I thought this would be the perfect time to do another one. I warn you ahead of time, there may be some venting involved. I just have so much I need to get off my chest at this point. So I appreciate you all listening.

I confess that I am just about done with California at this point. We’re more than ready to move again.

I confess that I’m pretty sick of not having a car for the last 12 days….quick story. We brought my car in on Monday 11/28 to have the engine looked at. By Thursday 12/1, they told us “nothing was wrong”. On Friday 12/2, they finally figured out the issue and ordered the parts they needed from Los Angeles. On Monday 12/5, they told us it would take a couple of days because the piece they were fixing was rusted. On Wednesday 12/7, they said it would probably be done on Thursday. And then yesterday 12/8, they told us they couldn’t fix it without taking the entire engine apart…25 hours worth of work at $120/hour. Not happening. Totally played us for two weeks. So we picked up the car and had it towed to another dealership. So far so good with this one! Keep your fingers crossed for me that I have my car back early next week.

I confess that I’m not the biggest fan of pregnancy. The changes to my body have been so hard to accept regardless of it being for a good, exciting reason. I just don’t myself fully accepting it any time soon, but we’ll see.

I confess that I definitely had way too much coffee this week. But it was so very much needed to deal with some people.

I confess that people are driving me absolutely insane lately. Both online and in person. I’ve almost had to avoid human interactions because of it…which is pretty easy considering I STILL don’t have my car…

I confess that I’m super nervous about the job interview I had this week. I should find out the week after next if I got it or not, but I’m worried. I don’t want them to take away the job once they find out I’m pregnant. But this job is SO important for my actual career. I need it on my resume. Keep your fingers crossed for me.

I confess that I’m already nervous about how I’m going to balance work and being a mom once the baby is born. While I’d love to be a stay at home mom, I’m also dying to get my career off the ground. And I’m just not willing to sacrifice all my hard work.

I confess that one of the worst things about pregnancy are other people’s opinions. While I love feedback, I don’t need people monitoring what I’m eating or how often I’m at the gym.

I confess that I am SO behind in sending out our Christmas cards this year. I’ve had them set up and ready to go for a couple of weeks now, but the lack of car has made it challenging for me to get to Staples to buy new ink for my printer…and to get to the post office to actually mail them.

I confess that I’ve completely sucked at this WHL newsletter I started. I promise I’ll get back on track with it this weekend!

I confess that I have absolutely no idea what I want for Christmas. Like no clue. Just send us money at this point. Theres not even any room in this apartment to put anything new!

I confess that I am super proud of myself for getting back on track with school this past week. I am FINALLY caught up and doing so much better. It wasn’t looking good a few weeks ago. Like academic probation type bad. Which is super disappointing considering I earned a 4.0 in my bachelor’s degree. So I’m hoping to do much better from here on out.

I confess that I’m super nervous about my doctor’s appointment this afternoon. I haven’t seen the doctor in about seven weeks so I’m super nervous to find out if everything’s okay in there. As long as everything goes as planned, we’ll know today when we’ll be finding out the gender (which will hopefully be two weeks from now)!

I confess that I have absolutely no idea what I’d do without my awesome husband. Or my friends (shout out to Rachel and Katie!). Or my parents. They’ve all kept me sane these last few weeks.

What are your Friday confessions?

  • Jen

    People’s opinions during pregnancy are the worst!!!! I had so many strangers get after me for drinking caffeine and running while pregnant. It was so frustrating. Just remember that you know your body better than anyone and don’t listen to ridiculous people.

    • Oh gosh they’re so horrible. I try so hard to be nice because I know they mean well, but it’s driving me insane sometimes haha I’m drinking coffee as I type this. I’m not going overboard with it by any means, but yes, I’m continuing to drink it. And there’s no way I’d give up my work outs either. I tone it down when I feel I need to, but it’s so important to me that I keep it up and stay in shape so that I’m not having as many issues with the baby weight after the baby is born. And people even have comments about THAT too. Telling me, I’ll never get my abs back. Like I’ll somehow just never set foot in a gym again once the baby is born. Girl, I’m going insane over here haha I’m sorry for this mini rant.

  • Just Playing House

    Great list of confessions! I also hate car dealerships. It is hard to deal with the changes your body goes through during pregnancy. It ruins you…just wait. 😉 Good luck with the interview. Don’t worry about them taking the job away once they find out you are pregnant. They really can’t legally do that! Just wait for the offer and just before you accept it you should discuss it with them and what your needs are related to it (I worked in recruiting over 10 years). Hope you get it.

    • Thank you! And I know they can’t legally do it, but I wouldn’t want to ruin any connections I have with this company. It’s my legit career, not a random part time job on my resume. So I need to be on good terms with everyone here for when we move back home in a couple years. I’m totally already feeling guilty for not mentioning it in my interview, but it was a group interview so I feel like that would have been weird to blurt out haha we’ll see what happens!

  • Omg I love this. You sound so much like me. I am not pregnant but I anticipate I will feel exactly like you. And EVERYONE has been annoying the crap out of me lately. I have been flipping people off in the street left and right. I hope you get the job!

    Rachel | The Confused Millennial

    • Hahaha I’ve literally been a hermit these past couple weeks just to avoid people. It’s been that bad. They’re all driving me insane.

  • Neely

    I completely understand and relate on pregnancy. The body changes are SO HARD!

    • They’ve been the worst! I’m trying so hard to accept them and just focus on the fact that my body can sustain a life, but it’s so challenging :/ I very much hope it gets easier for me as the pregnancy progresses!

  • If it makes you feel any better, I felt the same way my entire pregnancy. It’s really hard when everyone else seems to adore pregnancy, but I think the reality is people who have a hard time just don’t talk about it, because they’re worried about how it will make them look.

    • I really want to like it! I really do. We looked forward to this for months and I really am so grateful for the experience. I wouldn’t trade it for anything. But it’s been so hard at times. I plan to be open about it on here throughout my entire pregnancy for that reason. I feel like no one talks about it. I just don’t want to offend those who are struggling to conceive.

  • Sarah K

    Breathe gorgeous! Easier said than done I know, but chop it up to a bad week and you are blessed with a little bundle and Christmas to enjoy! Keep smiling and filing the world with your lovely!

    • Aww thank you so much Sarah! 🙂 I’m trying to stay positive, but it’s definitely challenging some days. I’m hoping it gets better once we find out the gender and get through the holidays.

  • <3 You know how much people have been driving me nuts as well 😛

  • Good luck with your job interview! Hang in there with the pregnancy madness. Do whatever you need to do to get through it and don’t worry about what anyone (except your doctor ;)) says about it!

    • Thanks Falon!! 🙂 and my doctor hasn’t been much better actually haha I’m highly considering finding a new one depending on how today’s appointment goes. But people are literally going to make me go insane.

  • Crossing my fingers for you on the job!

  • Greta Hollar

    It’s a stressful time of year! Things will calm down and so will people (online and in person). I hope you get the job you interviewed for!

    Greta |

  • Not having a car is so stressful. Hopefully you will get it back soon. Good luck with your job interview!! Fingers crossed you get it. I know that when the time comes for me to have a child, I will have issues with the weight gain,etc. It’s okay to feel that way (even though I have never been a mom). You can def balance your career and being a mom!! You got that!!! Just breath a little. I’m sure the holidays are not helping out either.

    • Oh it’s the worst! I’m on day 15 now. I’m surprised I haven’t gone insane yet haha but pregnancy has definitely been a roller coaster so far. Some days I’m feeling super discouraged and icky and then other days, I’m fine with the changes. It really varies each day. I’m hoping I’m able to accept it more as I get further along. At this point I’m just ready for the holidays to be over haha so much added stress.

  • Juggling a lot of responsibilities can be hard at times I agree. Best wishes

    • Thanks! It’s definitely stressful sometimes. I’m hoping it gets better once the holidays are over.

  • Shani Ogden

    For me, there’s a huge difference between not having anywhere to go and not having the option to go anywhere! There have been days when I haven’t left my house but if my husband suggests I take the car in and be without it for a day, it drives me nuts! Hopefully you’ll get your car back soon! 🙂

    • Right?! I at least want the option to leave the house! haha I’m now on day 15 without it and I’m slowly starting to go insane. I’m hoping we hear something today and can get it back ASAP.

  • Well I’m not pregnant, but I do know how annoying it is when other people think it’s okay for to tell you what you can and can’t do with your body. Some people like to think they can tell me what I can and can’t do with my leg and knee and that makes me so mad! I know my body best! Best of luck, girl!

    • Oh it drives me insane! I have scoliosis as well and I can’t even begin to tell you how many people I have in my life who are constantly asking about it or how many people I had suggest I get it surgically fixed before getting pregnant…a surgery that no doctor suggests at this point in time and one that costs thousands of dollars. Drives me crazy! I work out a ton and focus on my back a lot each week to keep those muscles toned and as long as I’m on top of it, I have very minimal backaches or pain 🙂

  • Girl, sending you LOVE + good vibes! I can’t imagine what it feels like to be pregnant and see those changes taking place – and feel them, too! – and it’s a blessing but also something to definitely get accustomed to…I hope you feel better about it soon!

    Coming Up Roses

    • Thanks so much girly! 🙂 it means a lot. Thankfully the changes are gradual so it allows me to really ease into it a bit. But I’m now halfway to full-term and I’m still barely showing. So at this rate, I’m scared I’ll literally just wake up one morning with a huge belly haha